BEHIND THE FACADE
Just a slight intermission from regularly-scheduled content, so we can all have a little heart-to-heart. Come dig a little deeper with me.
Shortly returning from
, I did an incredibly cathartic shoot with
. It was the most difficult shoot I had to do, because we photographed it twice. The first time we did it some of the pictures disappeared due to an SD card failure. Despite all that, we pulled through and the results are, as you can see, absolutely stunning. Never thought I could pair off that #wethairdontcare attitude. I really have to thank my dear friend and photographer,
, for pouring his talent and genius in creatively directing me on this shoot.
That said, there were other factors in my life at the time that made it especially challenging. While I try my best to remain completely transparent in this space, there are things in my personal life I haven't been so forthcoming about. Often times bloggers, influencers and tastemakers are expected to live a certain kind of life. One that is aspiring, almost fantasy-like. I've been guilty of that myself, and that’s because I think about you, my readers, and what others might find inspiring on my own journey.
For the past two months I've been mentally nursing myself from a rather major breakup. A lot of you might have felt the absence of Martin from the site lately and probably speculating why he no longer pops up on my Instagram feed anymore. To spare you all the details, we decided to mutually separate a few months into his relocation for work. We both tried our best to make the most out of our long distance situation. Rest assured, presently, we remain cordial as friends.
Like most breakups, you learn from the good, the bad, the triumphs and the failures. And I certainly did over the last year and a half. At the risk of sounding like a cliche, I sincerely believe everything happens for a reason in life to make you stronger and more resilient. To empower you to pick up the pieces, cherish what you already have and make the best of it.
I’ve always likened relationships to be two people driving and attempting to control the stick shift of a manual car - there’s always a palpable tension, looming uncertainty of what the next move is, yet you’re inextricably drawn to the excitement of just going with the flow. Simply put, relationships aren’t something you can put on an automatic gear. Both parties need to commit to the swerves and curves ahead.
At the moment, I am at peace with myself and thankful for the support system I am so fortunate to have. I feel the need to live life in the moment and to the fullest more than ever before. Because sometimes letting go is just as important as taking control. I already know that this will be a lifelong lesson for me - it’s just so comforting and liberating to take action and not be a victim of your own circumstances.
Standing strong, rising above and signing out.
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